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Everything Beautiful

by Akeldama

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1.
Enter a wintery wasteland The sum of a lonely existence The picturesque frozen plain Of solitary continuance A city of people Who might as well be shards of ice A metropolis Juxtaposed astride a snowy tundra I've longed for a new beginning All I've ever wanted is to escape this Frigid climate That to perfection Resembles my torn and tattered heart I'll remain on this train Until it takes me far away from This enslavement my life has become Like an invitation Heavenly melodies grace my ears As she voices the slightest whisper In the distance I turn and I meet her eyes In a flash my life goes blank In a world as cold as this I still can not resist the thought That she can be the one to change my heart She can mend the wounds brought me here But her presence has left me speechless Not a single word can escape these lips I am surrounded by bliss And nothing can pull me away I am lost in my reflection Captive by my obsession Now this moment should just Stay here with me For your love will always be Here, safe, for eternity I'm still stunned As the train stops I can't shake This moment off I watch her turn And get off the train I can see the glimmer of tears in her eyes I finally come to my senses Set foot And exit the train just in time "I've got to find her" I think As I frantically search the platform She's nowhere to be found I'm back in this wasteland Alone There's no one around me How can this be? Where did she go? So alone She must be lost in this desolate place like me She is the light that will ignite my love The key to set me free I hear the shuddering sounds Of suddenly shushed suffering I see a slight blue glow Against the grey backdrop through the window As I approach the huddled figure in the street I speak: "I have to say when I met your eyes" "In a flash my life went blank In a world as cold as this I still could not resist the thought That you could be the one to change my heart" "You can mend the wounds that brought me here Now your presence has left me fearless Not a single day longer will I wait I have found my bliss And nothing can pull me away" "I was lost in my reflection captive by my obsession I wish this moment could just stay here with me For our love will always be Here, safe, for eternity" Two souls entwined through eternity By a love forever threaded Transcending reality and Defying all comprehension "This love Is far above us It's divine It's everything we are and more" "I was lost in my reflection captive by my obsession I wish this moment could just stay here with me A lifetime of memories, And on through eternity"
2.
Still Heart 04:50
We are one This breath of love swells my heart to bursting I was nothing without you, and Now I stand complete Your beauty brings me to my knees And with every moment I feel more unworthy I feel that you could slip away In the blink of an eye And before it seems I've even blinked at all Tragedy falls upon this love I swear I knew it was coming But why can't it be me? -Now breathing stops; I'm just choking- Oh God, why can't it be me? I could never make this choice on my own Given a thousand years I'd never find the answer This is not my place But as the tendrils of my mind creep into my soul -And though I'd- It's as if the very life-force in me -never wish for her to- blackens in the mind's embrace -suffer here- And as this darkness takes me, I can feel my heart fade -I just can't let her- Fade away and leave me for nothing I have witnessed such beauty And it's slipping away from me Having caught a falling star Which now crumbles through my fingers The quality of life has decayed A dreary monotone wasteland remains I know what I must do I must play God and give her mercy I must end the suffering She would do the same for me I can't leave her here this way But how can I go on Living with a heart that's been stilled? But as the tendrils of my mind creep into my soul -And though I- It's as if the very life-force in me -never wished for her to - blackens in the mind's embrace - suffer here- And as this darkness takes me, I can feel my heart fade -I have now let her- Fade away and leave me for nothing
3.
"The cold grip of death has taken her from me I watched her color drain, as her life did flee How this has come to pass, I can not comprehend I can only blame myself, for my love's tragic end In my misery I find myself in a subconscious state It focuses me and frees me from this unending ache In this setting I have come to the apotheosis of my zen The idea that in death I can find her once again"
4.
Apotheosis 04:51
I fall fast like nightingales in winter's cold sharp grasp The ground approaches faster with every struggle to lift your wings to fly again But with every attempt comes failure It natural I can't pretend to think that all this effort will pay off anymore I'm content with losing as long as this all finally just goes away I've lost her I stripped her life away with my own hands I watched my world slip through the cracks Alone, and I'm Feeling conscious for the very first time Now I'll pave the way into this corrupted mind I'm going farther than I've ever tried Now I've found a way to end this precious life My heart is just a pulse away from bursting out through my chest Cold fear shoots through my veins like shock waves, My god this can't be happening And now its too late, I can't stop this anymore Regret, regret, regret, regret! "How the hell did I end up here? I can't recall this place at all Is this my imagination? Or was that my dying breath?" I'm lost here I'll take my life away of my own free will It has become so clear, as I'm Feeling conscious for the very first time Now I'll pave the way into this corrupted mind I'm going farther than I've ever tried Now I've found a way to end this precious life
5.
"I stand atop a concrete peak The summit of my life As I look down my knees grow weak I long end to end my strife I've come this far, can not defect For this thought has all my trust In this life, and the next Our love will bind us Forever"
6.
Descending from my mortal life Falling to the depths Of the abyss Crashing down From my existence What is this nightmare? So strange, Intangible, Yet so real This must be the end of me And at once Everything comes to a stop This place grows cold and silent A stillness like I've never felt before I can feel terror coming A hanging dark presence looming From the haze approaches a figure A shadow, a void, a chasm of nothingness As it draws nearer, shivers shoot through my soul Encased in smoke This demon trudges forth With me in its gaze "I am the lord of lies, a beast of illusion The great deceiver Now is your chance to rewind to go back in time and leave this all behind" And what's this chance? I've gone to the end of the earth To find an answer "You deserve to let her live, But to be without her And free from her memory" This offer will leave me Desolate and lost It's the only way to bring her back again "You'll have to destroy yourself" Take pity on my soul I can't live with this regret Please make me forget this torment "I will erase it all" I can live again, But without her I will never be complete I must let her go I will accept a hopeless life To know that she is alive I know I'll lose myself To know that she is safe Will give me solace to go on As I am ripped from this existence Time is tearing to make this seam My life now gone, not even A memory All that I have ever know Has vanished before my eyes And now I'm lost in my mind Captivated by the state of bliss in my unconsciousness I'm slipping from reality I do not remember What I was living for I just can't seem to grasp How I'm feeling So incomplete and disconnected My mind lays in ruins Stripped of my salvation
7.
Pain Is at the forefront of my mind For but a simple moment's time Although it seems to last forever It will fade away with the wash of madness that fast approaches My only fear is this: Without the pain What will I become? What will I become? This instance of pain is my one and only memory What brought me here to this moment in my history? I know something happened It's something immense Strong enough to erase the pages of my life's story When did I make the choices the led me here? Where did I take the wrong turn? Everything is wrong I can feel it I have become a miserable wretch I'm left in a spiral of contempt I hate what I've become So I reach out to others, compelled to find compassion Only receiving just a passing glance in judgement This world around me; a mirror of my wretchedness Yet there's one struggling glimmer of a thought From within the deepest blackness It claws at the edges of my sanity Refusing to be sucked into oblivion Within this vacuum in my mind This tiny thought spins a tale of hope; a seed of possibility I know it must be false but I can't relinquish it It's giving me a sense that there's a purpose to this madness It tells me: "There is someone out there waiting for you to change everything" An unrelenting notion that I must fight through this seemingly hopeless reality" But is it just the needles and the glass, A catalyst for full blown insanity? Is this world a perpetual winter night, Or will the sun one day rise on a precious summer solstice? This hope is a plague on me One last strand to hold onto In the center of my being I just want to let go of this thing Release me from this reality Unbind me The fabric of my sanity is Unwinding Fragments of a prior existence Float freely in the limbo of my consciousness Not a single one contains substance Just a ripple on the surface of a memory Everything has been shattered to pieces Separated by a void that I cannot comprehend This purgatory is a fate worse than death I exist as the shadow of an entity The void has come to coalesce Ruling over everything I am That which is missing has left such an emptiness That my existence has been rendered purely meaningless
8.
Shift the scope To this portrait of her broken life A mirror of his agony Her spirit within is tainted with a hopeless sense of existence Miserable, she prolongs this in catatonic attraction This oppressive atmosphere destroys her will to live She is lost and does not want to be found "I'm a prisoner, To living in this world In captivity I'm shackled to my soul I am a slave Bound to this cold dead self In this mortal machine I just want to be free To die alone" "And in the midst of This desire of extinction I am visited by a chimerical memory And this radiance consumes me So vivid, so real I can feel the warmth permeate my soul A seed of hope implanted Into my consciousness As it grows and evolves it Churns my contaminated mind A flashback to a time that never was A previous life where I felt complete The light from this dream Awakens my inner being" "My heart spins into vertigo Spiraling into ascension I am now at the summit of my aspiration It is finally clear that all my fear was imprisoning me And now I've broken free" "I was drowning in this sea of iniquity, Poisoned by this toxic perception, Now I bring the disease to the surface And purge this misery I float on this tranquil horizon Enchanted by the tree of light that's flourished inside me I stand mesmerized By the ethereal shift of consciousness A gift of enlightenment I am so alive Fulfilled in spectacular catharsis I have become one the universe"
9.
In this frame we find them both Shattered and scattered in the wind They each have found a seed of hope Deep beneath their skin They know not who they search for Nor why their lives feel incomplete Yet behind every single door They long to find the one they seek
10.
Hopelessness and desperation Have become my comfort I find terror in the thought that Change could end my suffering I've been stripped of everything There's nothing left of me here Not even a memory I've become content with this dreary wasteland Afraid to seek out change But this lingering hope won't leave me It nags at the center of my being It compels me to move, to search To find someone here who completes me Innocent In my desperation I Seek another life One I'm calling out to With everything inside me This is my last my hope I wander aimlessly Clinging to this incessant distant dream Finally I catch a glimpse of her She's shining Bathed in blue light I can feel my soul igniting I give chase I long to look into her eyes I know that everything I've lost Within her gaze I'll find But now I've lost her in the crowd Desperation closes in on me I can't lose her now I've found the source of my hope I can feel it in my heart Having this ripped from me Will tear me apart I knew I should have left it Well enough alone This hope I've found has done nothing But drag me deeper Hopelessness and desperation Have become my comfort I find terror in the thought that Change could end my suffering All of the light that shines from within her Won't stop calling to me I must accept that this hope will never fade Until the day I find her
11.
Arch angel The sigil of hope in this world A single light in all of my darkness I am down on my knees I'm begging you please Just bring her back to me I'm at the end of my rope I'd give everything and more just find her again There's nothing left of me here I'm taking the next train out of this wasteland An attempt to escape this lonely existence Turn the page in this tale of entwined souls We find her here again Just as lost as him She's yearning and hoping and searching in vain She rests her head in her hands and her elbows on a window pane "It doesn't matter how many moons pass The view is always the same when I look through this glass This is an empty world Devoid of all light Hope has abandoned me In this ever expanding blight" "There's nothing left of me here I am taking the next train out of this wasteland" And everywhere I go I feel this sense of purpose in my feet Every step leads me closer to the source of this Inflexible hope I remain on the train until it's empty Now the warning sign is flashing red: last stop As the train pulls in I trudge to the exit And step onto a dust covered platform Empty Abandoned The station is bereft of all life It could have been this way for centuries I'm at the epicenter of a faded existence It's like the world is taunting me Haunting me Nothing in my vision can be trusted as real I am alone now Desolate Far beyond lost And it's apparent that I will die as such I sit in the middle of the station My head in my hands Too lost in sorrow to notice the faint sounds Of delicate footsteps and subtle weeping And everywhere I go I feel this sense of purpose in my feet Every step leads me closer to the source of this Inflexible hope Then like an invitation Heavenly melodies grace my ears As she voices the slightest whisper before me I look up and I meet her eyes In a flash my life goes blank In a world as cold as this I still can not resist the thought That she is just the one to change my heart She can mend the wounds that brought me here Now her presence has left me fearless Not a single day longer will I wait I have found my bliss and nothing can pull me away And everywhere I go I feel this sense of purpose in my feet Every step leads me closer to the one who Completes me As we finally find love's true embrace Our minds are pierced with a needle of clarity The murk memories clear and the fragments are restored We are finally complete
12.
Our stories flow through the air above And ignite the living stars The capering of loving doves A decorative dance to reflect our hearts My life was forever locked But you were the key to set me free A life without you is just a life of misery I lost you once but love brought you back to me (Cheated death) Our love perfumes the midnight sky (Defeated death) I can see the vibrant glitter in your eyes Fade away Our love was a glowing furnace Warm enough to sooth our hearts And bright enough to humiliate the stars The icy breath upon your lips The one and final kiss Before we start again Our lives have now come to end Until we are born again Our souls will soar into the skies I'll hold you close all through the night My love "Goodnight my love."

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released September 6, 2013

Artwork by Daniel McBride at McBride Design.

Album recorded, mixed, and mastered by Andrew Zink at Zink Audio in Tampa, FL

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